Perched next to Rosie’s incubator, I could watch the machines recording her vital signs. I willed her to start breathing on her own and for her blood sugar to increase just a bit more. I stared at the little green lines and green numbers on the screens and talked to Rosie about how they needed to go up. I couldn’t feed her, or hold her. She couldn’t see me sat beside her. But I knew she could hear and smell me. Newborns always can.Read More
The midwife tried to find the babies heartbeat with her doppler device but couldn’t, she told me she was going to get new batteries for it and left the room. She returned with a doctor who had a scanning machine, he scanned me and that’s when the words hit.
"I'm sorry your baby has died it has no heartbeat”.Read More
1 year into a business buyout deal our business suffered our downturn and the agreement collapsed. So did our income. We had many months of more outgoings than incomings and as a result began to spiral into debt. Our financial life is a lot more stable in 2018 but the experience has also left us in personal debt.Read More
Leith and Aaron McHugh have been through the kind of pain and heartache that every parent dreads. Their daughter Hadley was born with a malformed brain. Her 11 years of life were filled with medical care and hospital visits. After she died lease and Aaron took stock and made a plan many people think about but very few carry out.
They sold their possessions, sold their house and moved
On the day that burnout hit I felt like I had been struck down by a wave of sadness and pain. Looking back the evidence had been there that I was slowly becoming disinterested in my life, but I didn't see it. As I lay on the floor sobbing helplessly I made some mental agreements that changed my life. It was horrific. I decided things had to change in our marriage. I decided that I would change. It was then I asked that question: what do you want to do with the rest of your life?Read More
There are times in our lives when we realise we are swept up in a movement. Times when you realise that the trickle of your thoughts is meeting with the surge of a wave rolling towards the sea. We are in one of those times.Read More